Wow. This year has really been something so far. I am stuck in this icky little hole and have been since New Year’s Eve. I need to find a way out of it and fast! I’m hoping that things are beginning to get better. More hours have opened up at work and I’m going to jump on the opportunity. Unfortunately this means that my Friday night social life is going to completely dissipate, however I am in desperate need of a bigger paycheck so it’s something that must be done. This is a good thing and could not have come at a better time, except unless it had happened 2 months ago. 
This year hasn’t been completely bad, even though I am having a hard time finding the positives. I know that they are there and I also know that I need to take more time give them thought. I am so wrapped up in this negative, stressful mindset that it’s all I can see. I am surrounded by wonderful friends who have stuck by me even when I’m at my worst. A family that I don’t give enough of my time to and have recently begun to realize are not invincible and everlasting. A job that may not pay well but is extremely rewarding and better than no income at all. Freedom to make decisions that may have not been thought out very well and have also caused a lot of stress and hardship, but have also been excellent life learning experiences that have and are helping me to grow as a person and adult.
With all of that in mind, I am going to try and work harder at being the person I WANT to be, not the person circumstances create for me to be.
